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trypanophobic) wrote2019-05-24 12:48 pm
trypanophobic) wrote2019-05-24 12:48 pm
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lil follow up log from gon's day of arrival
[with a little bit more arguing and scrapping, Killua and Gon have successfully submitted a few tasks. they decided afterwards that they should fish and forage. Gon doesn't have his pole, but showed Killua some alternative methods to catch fish. and Killua had the chance to show Gon his own, which is just straight up spearing the fish with his claws, which earns some gentle criticism from Gon since... you know, if you pop the guts, you can ruin the meat... but whatever, Killua just wanted to show off, anyway. it's good, wholesome fun.
the foraging is even fun. it takes Killua back, and he wonders if it was only fun because he got to do it with Gon. the whole time, if he looked outside their own little world for even two seconds, Killua was overwhelmed by his own happiness. true, the darkness lurked beneath, making him feel vaguely uneasy near constantly... but it's been greatly overshadowed over all.
he feels like he can't quite express how much he missed Gon. he knows Gon knows it, but Killua's never said as much, not even in their e-mails. he figures it goes without saying. but somehow, being abruptly reunited... especially without Alluka to keep him company, his soreness from not having Gon is so much more apparent.
now, fish wrapped in leaves, backpacks stuffed full of mushrooms, nuts and berries, Killua's sorting everything into his fridge. dirt is smeared on his cheek and shoulders, clothing stained with grass.
as Killua closes the fridge, he glances at Gon. Gon wanted to come to Killua's, which makes sense; his space is a little more lived in.]
We should move in together, out of this place.
[this place referring to where all the new transplants are crammed. part of Killua finds himself a little pathetic, how unable he is to keep himself from just wanting Gon around him all the time. especially since he feels it may not even actually be good for them... but he's just too weak to suggest anything else.]
the foraging is even fun. it takes Killua back, and he wonders if it was only fun because he got to do it with Gon. the whole time, if he looked outside their own little world for even two seconds, Killua was overwhelmed by his own happiness. true, the darkness lurked beneath, making him feel vaguely uneasy near constantly... but it's been greatly overshadowed over all.
he feels like he can't quite express how much he missed Gon. he knows Gon knows it, but Killua's never said as much, not even in their e-mails. he figures it goes without saying. but somehow, being abruptly reunited... especially without Alluka to keep him company, his soreness from not having Gon is so much more apparent.
now, fish wrapped in leaves, backpacks stuffed full of mushrooms, nuts and berries, Killua's sorting everything into his fridge. dirt is smeared on his cheek and shoulders, clothing stained with grass.
as Killua closes the fridge, he glances at Gon. Gon wanted to come to Killua's, which makes sense; his space is a little more lived in.]
We should move in together, out of this place.
[this place referring to where all the new transplants are crammed. part of Killua finds himself a little pathetic, how unable he is to keep himself from just wanting Gon around him all the time. especially since he feels it may not even actually be good for them... but he's just too weak to suggest anything else.]
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[Gon pulls on the clothes that Killua is so graciously lending him. He looks adorable in it, like a little closet cosplayer.]
Why am I the weird one here?! I mean. I guess he wouldn't want to be with a boy anyway? [Gon does not yet know that he knows any homosexuals. Or transpeople. Or. There's a lot that Gon doesn't know here.]
But... If Kite has a girl body now... Does that mean he's going to want to date boys? [Gon's ears are smoking.] But if he's regular Kite...
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Killua sighs coarsely, then plops on the bed beside Gon. he twists to stare sternly at his friend. this is something Killua knows about, while he doesn't have a ton of practical experience with it. but he definitely has more than Gon.]
Gender and sexuality operate different from each other.
[Alluka is too young to have really shown any preference in boys or girls, but she's not his only point of reference, here...]
Gon, I'm going to tell you something, but please don't tell anybody else, okay? It's not exactly a secret, but it's sensitive information. I think it's going to help you understand a little.
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[Gon sits up properly and nods dutifully. He can sense that this is going to be difficult material, but Killua's shift in attitude gets his attention.]
You can trust me, Killua. [He pulls his knees up to his chest, laying his cheek on his knee as he looks at Killua.] I won't tell anyone.
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[he adjusts, sitting pretzel legged as he lifts a finger at Gon.]
...Everyone in my family calls Alluka a boy, because that's how she was born. But she's never called herself a boy, because that isn't how she feels. Part of why I was happy to take her away from that place is because my family doesn't treat her as a human, because of Nanika—but they also don't treat her like a girl.
She's tough, so she doesn't mind, but I was afraid it might do eventual long term psychological damage.
Like Alluka is a girl, Kite is a boy. Alluka is very girly, so I wouldn't be surprised if she grew up to like boys. Of course, if she ends up liking girls, that's whatever. Kite is probably the same as he was before, whatever that was.
A person's body doesn't dictate what they're attracted to. There's guys who are born as guys that like other guys, and the same with girls who like girls. It just happens.
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What are they gonna do when they get older, though?! I got all excited about my stubble, but I don't think Alluka will... Oh man...
[Gon also just. Accidentally pictured Kite in a new adult body. His face goes red and he throws himself onto the mattress face down again.]
And Kite!! If Leorio met Kite he'd have to kill Leorio! Oh, noo..... Can we help them!?
[A beat.]
Guys who like guys... Ohhhhh is that what's... with... Hisoka?
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Kite probably has a strong constitution when it comes to handling idiots like Leorio.
As for Alluka... It's hard, because she's still little, and as her guardian, I'm also a child, but we're hoping we can get her medicine to block testosterone when she starts going through puberty. If nothing else, I can illegally obtain a prescription using my connections as a Hunter.
[to the bit about guys who like guys... Killua's face reddens, just a little.]
...I don't know what's "with" Hisoka. But he does seem to like guys. I never really thought of him as gay specifically, but I guess that he could be...
Definitely not all gay dudes are like that, I'm pretty sure...
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Yeah... I don't think anyone is like Hisoka.
[Well, now pandora's box has been truly opened.]
So... You know how Hisoka said there's shortcuts to tell what kind of nen user someone is? Is there that for gay people? How do I tell?
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and THEN—
Killua looks so incredulous it's just fuckin' off the charts.
then he comes back to reality, looking feral as he shouts at Gon.]
You idiot!! You can't just—"tell"!! I mean, with some people, you might be able to... It's just better to not assume anything about anyone, I guess. Just like you'd never know Alluka was born as a boy, some people you'd never guess only like the same gender.
Generally... I don't think you can tell.
[why does Killua look kind of crestfallen when he says that]
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[Gon couldn't shake the persona easily. He hasn't come to terms with the fact that he can't be a Hunter if he doesn't have nen.]
Hey, Killua, are you okay?
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[Killua rubs the back of his neck, looking distracted, his cheeks a little pink.]
I guess all this just put a lot of stuff on my mind that I haven't really thought about too much before...
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[Gon still has some energy, somehow]
We could spar! If it wouldn't be too boring for you since I don't have nen... Or... We could play a game!
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[Killua is exhausted by their conversation in ways he can't hope to articulate. he doesn't even fully understand, himself. thinking about girls, who Gon's going to date, what Killua finds attractive, Kite, gay stuff, transgender stuff...
he just flops backwards onto the bed. he blinks at the ceiling.]
I think maybe a game?
[he's too tired to spar..... Gon really does have limitless energy.]
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[Gon changes position and smiles, almost mischievously.]
Or... I think there were some cards in the lobby...
[But when Gon crashed, he always crashed hard.]
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I'd be down for a card game. There's definitely some playing cards down there.
[also hey there, Killua's not so subtle interest in gambling...]
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[And he hustles off with no flagging in his energy. Truth or dare would have been way too risky, good call Killua.]
[It just takes a few minutes for him to come back, cards in tow]
So.... Do you know any card games? I used to play poker with Mito and Granny... It was just for pennies, though.
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[Killua leans back, crossing his ankles with his knees akimbo.]
You ever play Egyptian Rat Screw?
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[That sounded... Interesting.]
Uh-uh. How do you play?
[Gon's eyes shined with excitement, though. He loved learning new stuff, even if it was a little challenging at times. And besides, he wouldn't trade anything for his time with Killua.]
It better not be too complicated!
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[Killua smiles, holding out his hand.]
Gimme the deck? I'll try explaining now.
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Thanks, Killua!